Parkland school shooter Nikolas Cruz's confession released

FILE - In this Feb. 19, 2018 file photo, Nikolas Cruz, accused of murdering 17 people in the Florida high school shooting, appears in court for a status hearing in Fort Lauderdale, Fla. Cruz reportedly had a history of shooting small animals. While some animal welfare advocates question the usefulness of animal abuser registries, laws creating them have been passed in a growing number of municipalities in recent years with proponents citing studies linking animal cruelty to crimes ranging from domestic violence to mass shootings. (Mike Stocker/South Florida Sun-Sentinel via AP, Pool, File)

State prosecutors have released most of Parkland school shooter Nikolas Cruz's confession on Monday afternoon.

The confession was recorded just hours after he opened fire at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School on Valentine's Day, killing 17 students and staff members.

The transcript is over 200 pages long and the video is expected to be released Tuesday.

The 19-year-old former student was interviewed by a detective at the Broward County Sheriff's Office shortly after he was arrested.

When the detective offered Cruz a glass of water before the interview, he replied, "I don't deserve it." The detective left anyways to get two glasses of water.

"Kill me. Just f*****g kill me. F***," Cruz said while he was alone in the room, but still being recorded.

Cruz admitted to going to Stoneman Douglas with an AR-15 rifle, according to documents. He also admitted to taking "lots of drugs," including Xanax and marijuana. He said he tried to commit suicide with Ibuprofen after his mother died last November.

Cruz told the detective he legally purchased the AR-15 for $560 from a gun store about a year or two ago, the report said. He bought it because he thought it was "cool looking" and to "feel safe."

According to the report, Cruz said he stopped attending Stoneman Douglas three years ago because his "depression worsened." He was suspended for getting into a fight with another student over a girl. Once he returned to school, Cruz ran into more problems, like failing class and skipping school.

Cruz then elaborated on the his "demons," according to the report. He said the demons were "the voices" in him, and that there was an "evil side." He told the detective that the voices have been going on for years and that it started after his father died, when he was around five or six years old. He never told anyone about the voices before.

When asked what the voice tells him to do, Cruz said, "burn, kill, destroy."

Cruz said he killed birds and started fires in the fire pit, according to the report. The "voice" is also what Cruz claimed told him to take the Uber to Stoneman Douglas. He described the voice as half good, half bad.

He also explained to the detective he was often lonely and has no friends, and the voice was like “an imaginary friend," according to the report.

After his mother died, Cruz said he tried to give his brother, Zachary, access to the money she left him, the report said. Cruz was eventually put in an alternative school, and said he wanted to be a U.S. Army Ranger when he was done with school. However, he didn't pass the ASVAB test.

He also referred to himself as “a failure.”

Cruz told the detective his parents "put him down" and made him "feel bad," the report said. They also treated his brother the same way.

At one point, during the interview, Cruz’s brother, Zachary Cruz, was brought into the room, according to the report. Zachary Cruz told his brother, "You’ll get through this. Just stay solid, just stay strong."

Later in the interview, Cruz talked to himself again after the detective left the room.

"I don't understand," he said. "I just want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die now."

Read the full confession below:

Cruz faces the death penalty if convicted on 17 counts of premeditated murder and 17 counts of attempted murder for the mass shooting at Stoneman Douglas.

He recorded his chilling intentions on his cellphone before he opened fire at the school. Those videos were made public back in May.

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